Choke Chain

the pain and scars

from the choke chain 

will always remain,

the trauma will pass

but it comes back

it always does 

I didn’t need ‘breaking in’

I was never challenging 

even though you 

drove me nuts,

and here I am 

trapped in a horror

version of Crufts,

you continuously 

whipped my butt 

to keep me passive,

I was never aggressive

just young, foolish

and confused, 

I really didn’t need to be 

locked up and abused

 

I’ve had a deep-seated anger

churning inside me all my life, 

it’s a beast I’ve kept pacified

I know one day it will rise

uncontrollably 

due to the weight

you forced upon me, 

I’ll retaliate, and when I do

I’ll sink my teeth into you

and I won’t let go,

you’re a weak fool,

weakness is what you reap, 

all my friends 

have been put to sleep 

standing up for themselves,

and you? 

you’re still here

inflicting pain

with your choke chain

pulling

yanking

tugging

tearing fresh flesh

from around the neck

convinced 

that beating me 

half to death 

will produce 

my best

.......... it won't