My Only Regret

I’m the mouthwash

you gob down the sink

I’m the doubt 

every time you think

of your liver swelling

every time you drink

to excess,

I’m the fear you feel

when you confess,

I’m the headlines

you don’t want to read

I’m the leukemia

every time you bleed

under skin,

I’m the psycho 

in the Scream mask

you should never let in,

I’m the human limbs

hanging in your pantry,

The Nude 

with your hands all over me

I’m the wound

infected with gangrene

I’m the Sasquatch 

who’s never seen,

I’m all the reasons 

to end your life,

I’m the one with the 

terminally ill wife,

as heartbreaking

as it gets,

I feel so lucky

we met,

my only regret 

is that I didn’t 

find you sooner,

we’re the love 

you don’t read 

about in books

I’m the boy

who

never mistook 

personality 

for looks, 

I know

you’ll be absent

as I grow old

and as my heart 

grows cold,

but

I’ll be the hand 

you hold

as you take 

your last breath

and

I will follow you

after death

I will find you

again

and never 

let you go