Miscarriage

it wasn’t my fault I stole myself,

it wasn’t my fault I ruined myself

through the pressures of ideals

and a reasoning to be 

what I thought I should be,

to bring a child into the world 

with no regard for its future 

and hoping my apparent lack of love 

would teach her/him

to be deserving 

to try to be 

something more 

than nothing