Behind Me

I don’t want to live forever
to lose a mind that took
a lifetime to align,
I don’t wish to sit and fester,
wondering what I 
should’ve done right,
the idea of living in darkness
as I kiss goodbye
to the light, 
isn’t worth thinking about,
I just don’t want to fight
through borderline neurosis
or whirl away in a strange
psychosis, I wish for people
to remember me 
maintaining
some kind of dignity,
I want to slip away quickly
knowing the best is behind me